PRANA: energy, breath, vigor, spirit, the prime mover of all activity, the vital intelligent life-sustaining force permeating living beings.
Where our mind goes, prana flows. Our mind-body connection is powerful, and a relationship I hadn’t been paying much attention to in the last few weeks. For weeks, a day didn’t go by where I felt 100% ok. I was searching for reasons as to why one moment I was feeling fine, and the next I was so unsettled. Was my injury the culprit? My diet hadn’t changed but maybe I needed a spring detox? Was it my morning coffee ritual? My vitamins? There had to be a scientific explanation for my reoccuring upset stomach. I was focusing on my physical health without giving much thought to the mental-physical relation. And then, as things usually do, it hit me like a ton of bricks, I was stressssssssed, anxious, and worried. As soon as I identified the way I was feeling, the knots in my stomach relaxed. I had let go. I’ve realized it’s tough for me to come to terms with my feelings because I don’t want to validate them/don’t think they are worth validating. I compare my circumstances and what I am worried about to the majority of problems and issues in the world and it seems so insignificant. Regardless, I feel them and ignoring them does no good.
Being overwhelmed is a feeling that frequents my life. I am equal parts excited and paralyzed by opportunity, eager to accomplish it all and always suffering from extreme FOMO (fear of missing out). My libra tendencies have me balancing on a scale when I desperately feel the pressure to pick a side. THIS is where my Prana has been flowing the past month. I was able to push it aside by focusing on getting back in my groove post injury, but this intelligent energy knew better all along. So now I focus on getting my mind and body back in agreement. I listen to both of them, and let them harmonize naturally. So what does that mean?
Today I spent most of my time at the studio, listened to mantra all day, did some writing, sat in silence, cooked nourishing grounding food, got my salt water fix, and am finishing up with a restorative yoga practice led by my best friend Haley. This is what I need.
More restoration. More simplification. More listening. More honoring.
